Driving me NUTS!

The whole weekend was fun, but has been spiraling! I am pretty annoyed right now due to men!
So we went to a local bar on friday, I got pretty drunk. It was my ex's bday and I just wanted to not think about all the shit he would be doing. Mainly I know he was hooking up with girls and causing trouble and to not go crazy, I over drank.
  I was told that I ran around pulling on people. Taking people's hats, and just running around being loud and rude. I then proceeded to twist my ankle when we were leaving. My heel got stuck in the grassy patch that I was walking through and I fell. HAH!! So someone (don't recall who) picked me up and took me to their car. We then got pulled over by the cops and the driver of the vehicle was taken to jail. Thankfully he was released without bail 6 hours later.
 Saturday night , I couldn't drink because of my knee, so I sat there going crazy over my ex and what he may or may not be doing. And in all honesty why the fuck do I care? I mean we were together for like 3 weeks and he was an asshole. We got along well, but shit, he was such a bad influence and I am sure he cheated . He also drinks daily, chews, smokes, tried drugs, .... What the fuck was I thinking even talking to him??? Anyhow, today which is tuesday I am over it. I think I just needed the weekend. I am thinking I just need to stay single for a while, been let down by men too much this year.

I use to want the whole family thing, where i find a guy , get married, build a life, have 2.5 kids, get a dog, ... but now, I am thinking fuck that, I just want to be financially stable on my own. I also want to take care of my sister and brother. My parents are losers as parents. They aren't supportive. I think some people just shouldn't have kids.

Today I am going on a date. The guy seems nice, he is tall, has one kid, and seems like we get along pretty well. But I am still nervous. I am not getting my hopes up and I am going to just go with the flow. Regardless I would be more than happy to just be friends. I am so focused on making friends.

Also thinking of going back to school. I know I don't want to do the whole campus aspect again so I am looking at online options. It's frustrating!!! Some are accredited but don't have good reviews and some are just too expensive. Also there are different types of accreditation which mean different things. The top schools cost 60 K! for a masters! That's freakin ridiculous! The lesser accredited ones are 30 K. Half the price. Ughn so annoying. Wish things could just be straight forward.
Least to say I am pretty annoyed at men, school and the whole aspect of trying to find a job that I love!!!
It's seriously driving me nuts!

So going now to get ready for my date. Have no idea what to wear !
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